GOD,
GIVE ME
A
MIRACLE.
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What,
What have i done wrong?
What did i do to you, God,
That you would cause all these to happen
Right before me,
Right before my eyes?
Have i committed a sin
So grave that you would even
Reject my selfless and sincere prayers?
All i requested,
Is just for you to help them.
THEM, not me.
I'm worth nothing,
Not just in their eyes,
But in mine as well.
I have prayed to you,
Telling you,
I'd sacrifice ANYTHING
Just to see them both together.
I made a promise,
A vow,
And you know me,
I WILL keep to it.
My word is my Honour,
And my Honour is my LIFE.
Take it if you will.
It means nothing already.
Take it,
So long as you answer the prayers,
Mine and theirs.
I'm slipping away from my Faith.
Don't let that happen.
I've promised,
To CHANGE who i used to be,
To CHANGE for the better.
Is that not what you want?
PLEASE,
I AM BEGGING YOU,
WITH WHATEVER LITTLE FAITH I HAVE LEFT,
I THROW IT ALL OUT IN THIS PRAYER:
PERFORM THAT MIRACLE.
I have cried for it to happen,
Catch my tears, God,
Don't let me let go of you...
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I feel like it's all my fault.
Like i've caused all this shit.
I can't help it.
I just feel like dying.
I shouldn't have done that.
Now i just feel like dying,
Because you do, too...
I've said this many times,
But i'll just say it again:
I'm sincerely sorry,
from the deepest part
of whatever's left of my heart...
