I am quite ticked off now. Ticked, not pissed. I'm trying to control.
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Everybody's treating me so coldly. Except, surprisingly, my brother.
First of all, SOMEONE (i shall not say names, they jolly well know who they are), called me and asked for my help getting to someplace. I waited for that person to get to a landmark so i can guide that person easier. For some reason, before that person even reached, that person said "Never mind, i shall go call Nick Cheang." and hung up. What, am i a bad guide? If i were to tell you how to get there all in one shot, your mind would be so confused. I'm just trying to help, you just didn't let me.
As much as i'm quite angry at this, i can probably understand.
Next, i thought i could get to another place to eat lunch with my friends. SOMEONE was supposed to CALL ME, when it was BI HUI so i could GET A HEAD START SO YOU GUYS WOULDN'T HAVE TO WAIT FOR ME. I was supposed to bring notes for that SOMEONE as well, but he called me WHEN THEY WERE ALREADY THERE, AND I HAD TO RUN ALL THE WAY THERE, OR THE BUS WILL TAKE TOO LONG. Not only that, since i was RUSHING, i forgot about the notes. AND HE BLAMES ME. Fine, it is my fault i forgot, but if i wasn't RUSHING, i would have CHECKED and TOOK THE NOTES WITH ME.
This is the main reason why i'm ticked off.
Finally, when i was RUNNING there, i THOUGHT i could eat lunch with my friends, laugh together, eat together. I met Nick Cheang, Mel, Shermaine and Pris on the way, and when i reached the shop, the first minute i saw Kang Joe, Nic Tan and Caius. The next minute, they all left me. The uncle even forgot my order.
Fine, those 3 had to leave to study. I can understand. The uncle probably forgot too since he was quite busy. I can understand.
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I don't know why, BUT EVEN MY FRIENDS ARE TREATING ME SO COLD. I EVEN THOUGHT THEY WERE BETTER THAN MY BROTHER. Guess i was wrong. Besides, the answers are all in the NOTES the teacher gave us and we all wrote it down. What for do we need the notes for the League Of Nations when we already have it? I really need someone to talk to.
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On a happier note, the prata was cheap. The mee goreng is really good too, my brother said. Plusplus, it's someone's birthday tomorrow. I'll see if i can be the first to wish her a happy birthday.
When i laughed, you laughed with me.
When i smiled, you smiled at me.
When i cried, you consoled me.
When i needed help, you helped me.
When i fall, you picked me up.
When i'm alone, you were always there.
When i'm feeling down, you made me happy...
We laughed, we shared.
We dreamt, we hoped...
Everytime i leave, my heart cries in pain,
Because i want to see your face again.
Tonight, you look as beautiful as you always do.
Tomorrow, i am yours to love.
I will promise you, forevermore.
Unbeautiful - Lesley Roy
Don't hang up, can't we talk
So confused it's like I'm lost
What went wrong, what made you go
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me I'm unchangable
When did we fall apart
Or did you lie from the start
When you said, it's only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable
[Chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
[Verse 2]
I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
When We were still untouchable
[Chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
[Bridge]
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we're much better altogether
Can't let go
[Chorus] x2
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
... Made me unbeautiful
OTC. Can't wait. Most probably i'll be going there in my sweaty camo uniform. Worse still, i'm going to school with my big bag of camp stuff. I'll look even more retarded than i already am. Oh well. 14th March, Grade 7 Piano Theory Exam. I don't know if my mother will allow me to go for OTC, then on 14th in the morning i'll go to City Hall to have my exam, and after my exam let me fly back to QOP. I definitely hope so. My results will contribute to my mother's choice too. I just hope this can be settled.
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I really need help.
Rules:
It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag ten people.Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up!
If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
1. What is your name : James.
2. A four Letter Word : Jail.
3. A boy's Name : Jesus, Amen.
4. A girl's Name : Janice.
5. An occupation : Jockey.
6. A color : Jade. (???)
7. Something you'll wear : Jeans! (And only jeans!)
9. A food : Jelly!
10. Something found in the bathroom: Jacuzzi. (only for the rich people.)
11. A place : Jerusalem.
12. A reason for being late : Jerks kept perstering me.
13. Something you'd shout : July has no holidays!
14. A movie title : Jumper!
15. Something you drink : Juice.
16. A musical group : Jason Mraz.
17. An animal : Jellyfish!
18. A street name : Jurong East Street 21.
19. A type of car : Jaguar!!
20. The title of a song : Jenny - The Click Five
The perfect bitter-sweet ending has been written...
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Future CSM? I wouldn't mind, really. As much as i don't want it, i will if i have to.
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I'm happy. =)
I'll be there always. So call me, when you need me. Happy valentine's day. =)
Sometimes, i just feel like crying. I feel like screaming my heart out, looking at the stars and asking God, "Why?"
Sometimes, i just feel like running away. Running to a far away place, and nobody would notice. I'll just be alone, except with God, and my beloved late Grandfather in my aching heart.
Sometimes, i wish i was still with Him, because i know he cares about me. He loves me, and i love him too. He will teach me, guide me, and i will listen, i will learn.
Sometimes, i wish i could just find a way to prove that, no matter how much i change, i have changed for the better.
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I guess, Love just isn't my calling...
